Wednesday, December 31, 2008
The babies were measuring on time and we saw a little bit of movement already from one baby, which is a great sign. I go back this Friday for my last ultrasound and visit to the RE. I am very much looking forward to seeing the progress of the babies though it will be bittersweet to “graduate” from our fertility clinic.
After the RE gave us the go ahead we announced the news to just about everyone over the holidays. I’m waiting a few weeks to tell my coworkers that we are pregnant. I’m hoping to hold out even longer on the twin announcement. I’m sure they will have doubts about my return from maternity leave when they get that tidbit. I’m planning to return to work but hope to work out a part-time schedule if they will allow it.
Next week I’ll see my OBGYN and I’m hoping to attend a Moms of Multiples Meeting. I’ve scheduled a tour of the maternity suites at the hospital for the week after. We’ve been busy reading up on multiple pregnancies and are getting exited to find out the sexes of the babies so we can plan the nursery.
I hope everyone has a very Happy New Year!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
When I arrived at work yesterday I noticed some heavy bleeding. After a quick meeting I called my nurse and luckily was put right through. She got me in to see one of the doctors at 9 a.m. So, I hightailed it and was in the waiting room in no time. For once, I waited maybe 2 minutes. I swear they whisked me back in there almost immediately. All of the staff at the clinic kept asking me if it was the big day and unfortunately I had to tell them I was a day earlier than scheduled due to the bleeding.
Once I got into the exam room to change I realized the bleeding had seriously progressed and I started to lose it. We waited for my husband to arrive and once he was there the nurse grabbed him and brought him back. Everyone was so serious and fast paced that I felt something was very wrong.
The doctor started the ultrasound and showed me a healthy heartbeat and that the baby was measuring 6 weeks 6 days (right on schedule.) I was still so scared and crying that the nurse had to bring me a wad of tissues. He continued with the ultrasound and showed us the other sac and second heartbeat, it’s twins he said! Before I could even register that two babies were in there I kept asking if they were alive and healthy. Luckily the second baby was measuring 7 weeks 1 day, 2 days ahead!
So, after we calmed down we were told to meet the doctor in his office for further instructions. As we opened the door to the exam room, our whole team was waiting for us with hugs and congratulations! They all “knew” it was twins and were there to wish us well!
So, as of yesterday I am on modified bed rest until Monday due to the bleeding. Apparently bleeding is typical with twins but I was bleeding a little more than average. Luckily, it has subsided today so I’m a tad less anxious.
Lucky for them my husband is delivering a huge BBQ lunch to the office today. We’ve been promising everyone at the clinic that once we got good news we were going to cater lunch and luckily we both delivered on our promises!
I still cannot believe it!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I had an irrational obsession for the show WKRP in Cincinnati as a kid. Which is strange because upon googling I learned that the show ended when I was 4, surely I was watching the reruns in later years? Otherwise, how on earth could I possibly remember something like this? My dad is from Cincinnati and whenever we would visit I would keep my eyes peeled for the station on the show. I particularly loved the glamorous Loni Anderson. Here’s a clip of the opening credits, I still remember the tune!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
We are trying not to focus on this, because while the possibility is both thrilling and terrifying at the same time there is just no guarantee until our first OB ultrasound on 12/17. The wait until that appointment is not nearly as torturous as the two week wait but that little bomb she dropped is making it pretty damn difficult to not count the seconds. I even bumped our appointment back and hour so we could get in as soon as possible. Oh, and you can bet we will be there 15 minutes early.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Let’s just say, I have reigned in my clothes shopping dramatically since my college and newly post-college days.
Even still, I couldn’t resist some recent purchases for some past season dresses and tops. I realize now this was more than a little bit indulgent since I ordered these before I got my BFP. However, I am a huge fan of the quality and fit of CK Bradley’s pieces and couldn’t resist these amazing deals. They just came in and I have no regrets!
Adorable dress for Spring 2010, I suppose:
I can totally wear this with tights and a cardigan right now, and it's a little big so I may be able to get away with it in March at the Carolina Cup:
Cute tops for work or weekend (also a little big):
I wasn’t entirely selfish; I did pick up a ribbon belt for my sister in law’s birthday:
As much as I love the print, you couldn’t pay me to wear ‘em:
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
In other news, I am still exhausted from Thanksgiving. I had originally planned for a total of 10. On Sunday, 10 turned to 12. On Tuesday, 12 turned to 13. Finally, on Thursday (Thanksgiving itself) 13 turned to 14. We had lots of family and my husband’s best friend, which really was fantastic. Dinner went over well with the slight exception of my cheddar chive biscuits. I am just not a baker. We had everyone over again today for leftovers that I think will probably be gone after our third round.
My cousins are all visiting from various (much more cosmopolitan) cities and are smitten with our city and have gotten a kick about the various friends and neighbors that have been dropping by. A friend of my husband’s is in the landscaping business and has started selling Christmas trees this season. He pulled up on our street this afternoon and we picked out our tree from his trailer. He trimmed it, put it in the stand and brought it into my living room!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I couldn’t wait (shocking) and tested positive Monday night and today but didn’t want to post until I had a number. I have been having a lot of bleeding which has been scary but my nurse has reassured me it’s OK.
I have a funny video of me telling my husband the news. He was half asleep and I woke him up to show him the test.
Today my family came for the holiday and we were able to tell them the news in person. Tomorrow my in laws come and we are looking forward to telling them. The only draw back to “coming out” to your friends about infertility is you have to spill the beans so early because of course everyone is asking. I can’t complain because our friends have been family have shown us wonderful support.
Today we are four weeks and should be due August 5, 2009. I am so excited but am still very cautious. It still doesn’t seem real.
Monday, November 24, 2008
During the 2WWof IVF #1 my mom and I were on a long weekend in NY. It was great because I was completely distracted and hardly ever thought about testing. Unfortunately, my period came in full force unlike any other period I have ever had. It was awful. We were at my mom’s friend’s apartment/gallery and I probably went to the bathroom every 6 minutes. Then I would step into a bedroom and call my IVF nurse for her advice. When it became apparent there was no way I was pregnant, we went to lunch. During, lunch I stepped outside onto the streets of Soho to call DH. I broke down in tears and wept on the street, it was so hard to be away from him. I was pretty numb the rest of the trip.
FET #1 wasn’t nearly as dramatic. I just tested like a mad woman and got continuous BFN’s. Since my beta was a weekday we went home at lunch to get the call. When we got the confirmed negative I busted out a bottle of wine, had a glass, and then went back to work.
On Wednesday my mom, dad and brother will be in town. We can’t decide where we want to get the call. DH will be working and I will be off for the day with a houseful of family. I’m thinking we could meet at a park and just wait for the phone call together. We’re not sure yet.
I have two days of work this week (whee!) and a lot to get done. I don’t know how I’m going to be able face my boss at our weekly meeting because I just cannot concentrate and my projects have piled up.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I had the tiniest bit of spotting today, which of course, led me to think my period is coming. I am 5dp5dt and there is definitely some action in my right lower abdomen. I’ve been feeling a little bit of cramps and sharp pulling/pinching. Nothing too painful, just noticeable.
Also, I started my Vivelle patches yesterday. I think the surplus of estrogen kicked in pretty quickly because I found myself tearing up not once but twice yesterday. I’m more than a little ashamed that it was this Rachel Ray show that brought on the tears.
This You Tuber’s version is totally making me smile and keeping me distracted from devilish home pregnancy tests.
PS – I realize I am no internet pioneer having just discovered both of these this week.
PPS - I would be lying if I told you I haven’t been scheming of creative ways to tell my husband I’m pregnant on Wednesday. I'm even thinking about videotaping it, but I won't be posting it to You Tube. I just don’t want to think about the possibility of getting bad news on beta day.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
On top of all of the devastating news about neighborhood business closings I found out my favorite home décor magazine is shuttering. I have literally saved every copy of this magazine since I first picked up it's inaugural issue. Of course, I save them with intentions to tear out favorite ideas to add to my "dream home" binder full of tear sheets. Um, I haven't touched that binder since maybe October 2007. I'm a hoarder/procrastinator in that way.
I sometimes feel guilty for spending thousands on these treatments when these economic times are so trying.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Bed rest is going pretty well. My mom has been a busy bee getting the house ready for Thanksgiving next week and I’ve gotten an early start on my Christmas cards.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Since I’m on bed rest I have been playing around (again) with our Thanksgiving menu. Tonight we are trying this recipe to see if it’s worthy of next week’s celebration.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Perhaps I should resume obsessing over Thanksgiving or even Christmas. I already have my bedside table stocked with magazines, books and even my Christmas cards to write while on bed rest. Oh, and I’m thinking about finally getting around to finishing my wedding album, 4 years later. Who am I kidding; I’ll probably end up watching re-runs of 90210 and Law Order for the 48 hours of bed rest.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
My IVF nurse sent me an encouraging e-mail out of the blue which really made me happy. Usually I am hounding her for an answer to a question but this was just a note of support from her.
Yesterday’s levels looked good and we did the trigger shot last night at 9:30 p.m. (my bed time these days). I went in this morning for my last round of blood work. The nurse had a difficult time today and had to prick me twice and call in for reinforcement, swell.
Yesterday I was told that no news is good news so I shouldn’t expect to hear from the clinic today.
I’ll post tomorrow with how many eggs were retrieved.
Monday, November 10, 2008
The longer we are in this fight the more I realize how many of us there are. At Thursday’s appontment my husband ran into a former colleague and his wife. I’ve lost count of the people we know that we have come across at the clinic. I know several co-workers, acquaintances, friends and friend’s of friends who are suffering from infertility and are undergoing or have been through various types of treatments.
On Friday my husband catered an event for a local adoption group that deals exclusively with kids from Russia. Coincidentally, on Sunday we ran into one of the families and their two little boys on a grocery run. If this IVF doesn’t work (it will, right?) then I am may take this as a sign.
Friday, November 7, 2008
I’m weaning myself off my crutches and am taking it slow when I walk. I’m planning on driving myself to work this morning for the first time all week. It’s been a busy and newsworthy week; we’re very ready for the weekend!
On a home decor note, I'm loving the November/December issue of Cottage Living. This kitchen makeover is fantastic and looks relatively doable as far as renovations go. I would love to replace our sink and countertops, raise our cabinets, add subway tile and get creative with hardware as this homemeowner did.
Monday, November 3, 2008
I’ve sprained both ankles a few times and have lost count of which foot and how often. Luckily I have a set of crutches and my husband made a CVS run to stock up on a new brace, an ice wrap and some magazines. I can only imagine how standing in line at the polls will go tomorrow. Since the media is reporting record turnout (and lines) we are planning on going early and bringing folding chairs.
After this morning’s blood work we found out my estrogen level is 85, which is low. My doctor decided to aggressively increase my follistim dosage tonight from 187 to 250. Lupron and HCG will remain at 10 IU respectively.
My husband is having a tough time remembering to take his doxycycline with food. He already has a bit of a weak stomach, which is a bad combination with antibiotics on an empty stomach. I think he might have learned his lesson the hard way this morning, let’s just say it wasn’t the most pleasant ride in to work. Things can only go up from here, right?
Please excuse my lack of pedicure, it is November after all.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Today starts day one of stims. While we’re handing our candy to trick or treaters we’ll be prepping our follistim pen to 187 IU and doing our first injection (this cycle) sometime between 5-8 p.m. tonight.
Last night we “carved” our Halloween pumpkins. And by carved I mean drilled polka dot holes a la Eddie Ross. Below are the photos from Eddie’s blog that inspired our versions which I will post later tonight.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Our first Thanksgiving I pretty much lazily delegated the whole meal to my husband, parents and in laws while posing for "Our First Thanksgiving" photos with my pearls and monogrammed apron around the table and in the kitchen. On our second Thanksgiving I actually cooked a little while my husband fried the turkey. Last year we were thrilled to include my aunt, uncle and cousins who joined us from their four respective cities in our new house. This year there will be 10 of us again snuggled tightly around our dinner table.
Next weekend I go to Charlotte for a girl’s trip which will include a visit to Trader Joe’s for some pantry treats. I estimated that my beta (pregnancy test) should fall right before Thanksgiving which could make for a very uplifting or rather depressing holiday season pending the results. Anyways, below are two recipes that I am currently mulling over.
Brussel Sprouts with Pancetta
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Recently we have started openly talking about our fertility problems with friends (particularly under the influence of the aforementioned wine). We had originally planned to start IVF #2 in November but due to the embryology team’s holiday schedule and annual conference (affectionately known as Beerfest!) we were told it would need to be October or January.
The HSG procedure was not fun. In order to verify I have no blockages in my tubes the catheter had to be inserted 3 times due to my uncooperative cervix, ouch. Luckily the RE gave me an A+ and found no blockages or other problems. Friday we went in for this cycle's first ultrasound and my lining appears to be looking swell. Lupron started this morning and I have a nice bruise on my stomach as a not so gentle reminder.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Monday night I trotted into Whole Foods to pick up some wheatgrass powder. Tuesday morning I nearly choked downing a glass of water mixed with one tablespoon. The taste is less than delicious and doesn't quite go away until after lunch. Yum. Today fared better when mixed with OJ. Monday I plan to join the gym and really kick this health kick into high gear.
Until then I'm finishing off the loads of extra cheese and M&M's left over from our weekend of entertaining. This weekend will be full of po' boys, beignets and other New Orleans treats while in the Big Easy for a wedding. I've got 5 days left of gluttony until the ax is dropped on my free wheeling eating and exercise habits.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Today I started noticing a dull sensation on the right side of my pelvis. I contacted my IVF nurse who assured me it is likely to be one of two things. It's either congestion from all of the estrogen I am taking or implantation spasms. Of course, I'm not getting my hopes up for the latter but it would certainly be perfect if it were the case.
I'm going to tweak this blog for a while before I share it with anyone. I hope once it’s out in the open it will encourage friends, family (and potential readers?!?) to be forthcoming about their struggles as well as receptive to learning about infertility. I have been a bit superstitious in that until we have a confirmed pregnancy I would rather be private about this. The few people who know about our difficulties have been extraordinarily supportive for which I could not be more grateful.
To keep myself distracted, the Type A in me has begun a bulleted list of potential vacation destinations (including handy links!) It includes links to dream cottages in Thailand, Turks and Caicos, Italy, Mexico and more. I’m dropping heavy hints for a 30th birthday celebration in an exotic locale. If all goes well, I’ll have to save the champagne for birthday 31!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
After unsuccessfully transferring two high quality embryos during our first IVF we were left with one equally high quality embryo left to freeze. With the help of our reproductive endocrinologist, an embryologist, a nurse, an ultrasound tech and an acupuncturist we transferred our lone embryo yesterday through a process called a frozen embryo transfer. At one point there were a total of six people in the room all tasked with knocking me up. Today I am on my second day of bed rest, anxiously riding out the dreaded "two week wait". On July 2 we find out the official results of our efforts. For the time being we are assuming the best while subconsciously preparing ourselves for the worst.