Wednesday, December 31, 2008

All is Well

Sorry I have been so slack in posting, all is well so far with the babies. We had our second ultrasound on Monday, December 22nd. We saw “our” RE at this appointment and were very relieved after meeting with him. I have a small blood clot, which is what caused the heavy bleeding and I very well could see more. He was unconcerned about the clot and said our chance of miscarriage low, between 1-5%.

The babies were measuring on time and we saw a little bit of movement already from one baby, which is a great sign. I go back this Friday for my last ultrasound and visit to the RE. I am very much looking forward to seeing the progress of the babies though it will be bittersweet to “graduate” from our fertility clinic.

After the RE gave us the go ahead we announced the news to just about everyone over the holidays. I’m waiting a few weeks to tell my coworkers that we are pregnant. I’m hoping to hold out even longer on the twin announcement. I’m sure they will have doubts about my return from maternity leave when they get that tidbit. I’m planning to return to work but hope to work out a part-time schedule if they will allow it.

Next week I’ll see my OBGYN and I’m hoping to attend a Moms of Multiples Meeting. I’ve scheduled a tour of the maternity suites at the hospital for the week after. We’ve been busy reading up on multiple pregnancies and are getting exited to find out the sexes of the babies so we can plan the nursery.

I hope everyone has a very Happy New Year!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

It’s Official - Twins!

This will be long.

When I arrived at work yesterday I noticed some heavy bleeding. After a quick meeting I called my nurse and luckily was put right through. She got me in to see one of the doctors at 9 a.m. So, I hightailed it and was in the waiting room in no time. For once, I waited maybe 2 minutes. I swear they whisked me back in there almost immediately. All of the staff at the clinic kept asking me if it was the big day and unfortunately I had to tell them I was a day earlier than scheduled due to the bleeding.

Once I got into the exam room to change I realized the bleeding had seriously progressed and I started to lose it. We waited for my husband to arrive and once he was there the nurse grabbed him and brought him back. Everyone was so serious and fast paced that I felt something was very wrong.

The doctor started the ultrasound and showed me a healthy heartbeat and that the baby was measuring 6 weeks 6 days (right on schedule.) I was still so scared and crying that the nurse had to bring me a wad of tissues. He continued with the ultrasound and showed us the other sac and second heartbeat, it’s twins he said! Before I could even register that two babies were in there I kept asking if they were alive and healthy. Luckily the second baby was measuring 7 weeks 1 day, 2 days ahead!

So, after we calmed down we were told to meet the doctor in his office for further instructions. As we opened the door to the exam room, our whole team was waiting for us with hugs and congratulations! They all “knew” it was twins and were there to wish us well!

So, as of yesterday I am on modified bed rest until Monday due to the bleeding. Apparently bleeding is typical with twins but I was bleeding a little more than average. Luckily, it has subsided today so I’m a tad less anxious.

Lucky for them my husband is delivering a huge BBQ lunch to the office today. We’ve been promising everyone at the clinic that once we got good news we were going to cater lunch and luckily we both delivered on our promises!

I still cannot believe it!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

My Baby’s Bizarre Connection to Loni Anderson

Apropos of nothing I thought I would share a funny tidbit about our tentative due date. Because I am horrifically bad at (basic) math every few days I Google an IVF due date calculator to see how far along I am. It never ceases to amuse me that the calculator says my singleton due date of August 5 is the birth date of Loni Anderson.

I had an irrational obsession for the show WKRP in Cincinnati as a kid. Which is strange because upon googling I learned that the show ended when I was 4, surely I was watching the reruns in later years? Otherwise, how on earth could I possibly remember something like this? My dad is from Cincinnati and whenever we would visit I would keep my eyes peeled for the station on the show. I particularly loved the glamorous Loni Anderson. Here’s a clip of the opening credits, I still remember the tune!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Beta #3 = 17,141

I went in for my third beta on Friday, 12/5. My nurse’s assistant called to let me know it came in at 17,141. She really didn’t say much else so I asked her if it was a good number. She kind of laughed and said it was very good and we should possibly be prepared for twins. In her opinion she said our likelihood of twins is 95%. Well, I reacted with a nice little expletive and then calmed down.

We are trying not to focus on this, because while the possibility is both thrilling and terrifying at the same time there is just no guarantee until our first OB ultrasound on 12/17. The wait until that appointment is not nearly as torturous as the two week wait but that little bomb she dropped is making it pretty damn difficult to not count the seconds. I even bumped our appointment back and hour so we could get in as soon as possible. Oh, and you can bet we will be there 15 minutes early.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Hypocritical Shopping Bender - So Much for My Aforementioned Guilt

In August I bought a jersey, cowl-neck, cap-sleeved dress in black at Wal-Mart for $12.50. I went back the next day and bought it in pink, purple, gray and garnet. Until recently, those are the last items of clothing I have purchased.

Let’s just say, I have reigned in my clothes shopping dramatically since my college and newly post-college days.

Even still, I couldn’t resist some recent purchases for some past season dresses and tops. I realize now this was more than a little bit indulgent since I ordered these before I got my BFP. However, I am a huge fan of the quality and fit of CK Bradley’s pieces and couldn’t resist these amazing deals. They just came in and I have no regrets!

Adorable dress for Spring 2010, I suppose:

I can totally wear this with tights and a cardigan right now, and it's a little big so I may be able to get away with it in March at the Carolina Cup:

Cute tops for work or weekend (also a little big):

I wasn’t entirely selfish; I did pick up a ribbon belt for my sister in law’s birthday:

As much as I love the print, you couldn’t pay me to wear ‘em:

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

State of Denial

While I’m incredibly grateful for our positive result from our IVF cycle I’m in a state of denial. I just do not feel like this is actually happening to us. I have almost no symptoms which could be cause for worry or rejoicing. Over the weekend my mom and I visited baby stores and my husband and I started researching pregnancy books. Mom took measurements of the nursery and my in laws generously offered purchasing our crib. All the while I have just been feeling like I am in a daze and that this is too good to be true. The pessimist in me keeps waiting for something to happen. It just seems inevitable considering all the lengths we went through to get here. Since we were pretty open about our infertility many people have asked the results of our beta. We have told so many people our news so early that it really makes me anxious. I hate that I’m not enjoying this but I’m just too careful for my own sanity. I feel guilty for even whining like this. If I were reading this post on someone else’s blog a few months ago it would make me angry.